Most of the time when I post on my blog or on social media about the things I have been through, I do it during moments of insight. Like, during some sort of epiphany I had about it, or once I’ve worked through whatever negative things I was feeling. Doing so creates this illusion that I’m completely healed and have it all together. Well. I don’t. Today is a good day for me, but I wanted to share something I wrote on a not-so-good day. I debated on sharing it because it’s pretty raw emotions for me. But it’s also very real. It represents my thoughts and feelings during a moment of vulnerability. It talks about my wrestling with God and myself. It even talks about how in those moments of pain, I long to go back to the past, not because the past was good by any means. But because it’s familiar, and because sometimes the change into a better person can be overwhelming and hard. Anyways, I wrote this poem as a way to express my pain. Oh, and don’t judge me, y’all. It’s simple and straightforward, not the most creative. But it’s honest.

Thanks, for reading, y’all. I hope this speaks to someone. Anyways, I’m off to do my work now! Stay blessed!